si naislumaya ay isang babae na matagal nang alipin sa kanyang mga takot. na-trauma na siyang minsan sa pagsusulat ng journal dahil nangyari nang, sinunog niya ang lahat ng ito - sa napakaraming dahilan. isa na dito, ay nung humantong sa isip niya na walang silbi pala ang palagiang pagpuputakti laban sa mga demonyong tumutuligsa sa kanyang isipan. subalit, matapos ang ilang taon ay bigla na lang naisip niya na hindi na pala siya marunong magsalita. pinangungunahan sya palagi ng mga demonyong tumutuligsa sa kanya, binusalan ang kanyang bibig, inipit ang kanyang dila at ang kanyang diwa. paano niya kakalabanin ang demonyo kung hindi niya ito kilala? dapat marinig niyang muli ang boses niya, at una sa lahat, matuto muna syang magsalita nang walang pag-aalinlangan, nang walang takot...

<< March 2007 >>
Sun Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri Sat
 01 02 03
04 05 06 07 08 09 10
11 12 13 14 15 16 17
18 19 20 21 22 23 24
25 26 27 28 29 30 31


If you want to be updated on this weblog Enter your email here:



rss feed



Mar 28, 2007
March 25, 2007, 7 pm

ang balud
nga among nadungog
didto sa lapyahan
sa baybay sa Toril
niadtong gabhiuna
way hunong nga naghaguros.
nindot kaayo.

nakatulog mi sa kalami.




Posted at 06:01 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Mar 20, 2007
maayo pa ang albularyo sa akong damgo

gidamgo ko gabii nga tua daw ko sa layong bukid. ug naay albularyo. ug sa dihang miingon siya nga nagablog diay sya, nablag ko. "As in? You write seven paragraphs in the blog a day?" Niana daw ko.

Mao to. Maayo pang albularyo.nagablog. ug open kaayo siya sa iyang blog.


Posted at 01:59 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Mar 15, 2007
Just a little fun


poor one. he just wanted to have a little fun.


Boy dies after swallowing live fish

03/14/2007 | 09:48 AM

What started out as a joke turned deadly for a 15-year-old boy who choked after accidentally swallowing a live fish in General Santos City Tuesday.

Radio dzBB reported Wednesday that the boy, initially identified as Johnny Talino, 15, of Sarangani province, failed to reach a nearby hospital alive.

The report cited initial information indicating that Johnny was at a gathering with his father and his friends when he jokingly put a live fish in his mouth.

But the fish slipped through his hands and into his mouth, and was briefly lodged in his throat.

After swallowing the fish, Johnny could not get the fish out of his throat and had difficulty breathing. He was rushed to a nearby hospital but died on the way there. - GMANews.TV


Posted at 06:15 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Feb 19, 2007
WhyCesar? Cesar Montano

Why Cesar why? Why did you have to sell your soul to the devil? I doubt if you have even a soul now. So you think the midget devil will look taller now in the eyes of the people just because you raised her blood-tainted hands?And do you think you still have that charm now?

Posted at 02:40 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Feb 5, 2007
Federico at Nelly Intise: Kayo ay Hinahanap Pa Rin

Nag-agaw buhay na ang liwanag at dilim nang sindihan ni Bayan ang mga kandilang nakatirik sa paanan ng parke sa harap ng simbahan. Umuulan, subalit nanlaban ang mga ilaw. Lumiwanag. At maya-maya pa’y nagsipaglapit ang mga tao. Hindi sila kilala ni Bayan. At hindi rin nila kilala ang mga mukhang larawan na nakalapag sa hagdanang iniilawan ng mga kandila. Pero nagtatanong sila, nagtataka, “Sino at bakit, ano ba ang nangyari sa kanila?”

Mahirap magsindi ng kandila para sa mga taong, hindi mo tiyak kung sila pa bay buhay o patay na, pero nagsisindi pa rin sila. Hindi para kay Nelly. Hindi para kay Federico. Kundi, para sa mga sarili, upang kahit sa munting liwanag man lang, makita nilang may pag-asa, mahahanap pa rin nila ang kanilang hinahanap.


Posted at 07:00 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Jan 29, 2007
Storm

Isn't it so, that life
The struggle
Is a storm, one coming after the other?




-said J.M.A, on page 222, STR

Posted at 07:42 pm by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Jan 27, 2007
Mga kaligutgut nga manggawas kada hapit na katapusa sa bulan

karung panahona nga tinggutom, magsigeg sipok ang akong ulo. mubo akong pasensya ug sigeg mag-alingasa, manggawas ang mga problema, mga kaligutgut ug mga nakalimtan na untang kayugot.

wa koy kwarta. wa koy kwarta, dili para sa unsa. wa koy kwarta para ipalit lang man og noodles.kinsay dili makapameste aning kinabuhi. nganong wala koy kwarta? una, gamay ra gyud ang akong ginadawat kada bulan, wa siguro katunga sa minimum wage kada adlaw. nganong di man pud daw ko mangitag laing trabaho? ayaw na lang kog pangutan-a.  kay dili na solusyon nga mangita kog laing trabaho. mao to gamay gyud. basta automatic na, ingon aning mga adlawa, mga katapusan sa bulan, sa giingon pa, hapdus gyud akong kuto-kuto. nakahinumdum ko, nigasto man gud kog mga 600 pud, akong gipadevelop ang mga litrato sa igsoon nako nga gikasal tungod kay sa tan-aw nako, importante kaayo tong okasyona- murag highlight sa among kinabuhi ba. kabalo na ka, gamay ra kaayo to nga kalipay sa kinabuhing giupy-an sa pamilya nga tan-aw nako halos nabulit og kamiserable. mao nang akong huna-huna, nindot jud naay handumanan sa among kalipay, para bulahan, naa mi lantaw-lantawon ug usab, basun na lang kami makaingon nga, "sus no, naa man pud diay mi gamayng kalipay?" mao to siya akong tan-aw nga siguro kung wala nako to gastoa ang 600, basin sa pagkakarun, nakapalit-palit lang ko gamay og makaon. pero sa tinuod lang kapoy na kaayog kaon ug noodles ug sardinas ba. ingon aning mga higayona, nga murag gusto kong moundang aning tan-aw siguro sa uban, "dakong kabuang;mag-antos sa kinabuhing halos walay sweldo." pero sa gikaingon ko na, dili sulbad ang mogawas diri ug mangitag laing trabaho. mao tong,kung huna-hunaon, dili gyud nako dapat mahayon ang akong kaugalingon nganong gigasto nako tong P600. kumbaga,mura gud og budget sa pamilya. dapat unta naay budget kung naay magsakit-sakit sa pamilya. pareha ra pud na anang istoryaha, naa pud kay budget sa gamayng kalipay... hahaaay.

bisan unsaon gyud nko nag stretch akong ginadawat kada bulan, dili jud na siya kaigo. siguro kung naa koy kusina ug gamay pridyeder, basin moinat lang sya gamay. arang-arang tingali gamay.makaluto kog pagkaon, nga medyo malipay pud ta tungod kay dili lang man unya pirmi na lang kog kaon og delata. dayon siguro makaluto pud kog utan. hahaaay...

kinabuhing pobre.


Posted at 02:21 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Jan 8, 2007
A Yearend Reckoning

While the few rich were doing this http://www.mindanaotimes.com.ph/story.php?id=14944 in Marco Polo, I was asleep beside my boyfriend who was burning with a high fever, in a rented room, at the first floor of a pre-war wood house.

I got up, lighted an incense and a candle while outside, I heard neigbors making noises with their pots and pans, and videoke singing of "Hasta Maana" repeated many times over.

The question of "Who am I" remains a question to reckon after all these years. I guess, it is because people around one change, the things around one change. Old things die, new things born, life goes on and it is a constant search as to where one must find one's self in all things.

I've got things yet that should have been burned but are still trapped in the nook of my locker. The body passes away but memory remains. We choose what to remember and we choose what to forget. But there are just things that persist, and memories too that persist. What to remember and what to forget?  

2006 was such a year. I have had extreme joys and extreme sorrows. This year has taught me a lot of things. Life is life in itself. Who does not want to be always happy? But then, problems do come. Often, these are problems that are problems in itself because we never thought, not even in our wildest dreams that they would happen.

When problems come, I should always remember what my lola taught me, and of course, Marx that every problem has a solution.

We have to give to life what belongs to life and often, these are the things that happen, without us knowing right away, why they happened. It is when we reckon things that we understand, why it happened. And I guess, that's the beauty of living. You understand


Posted at 09:13 pm by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Nov 27, 2006
What 24-hours of Torment Can Do to A Life

What 24-hours of Torment Can Do to A Life:

(Two women human rights workers bare their experience while in captivity by the military)

General Santos City --- Not a single bruise could be found on any part of the body of the two women staff of the non-government organization Disaster Response Center (DIRECT) as attested in a medical certificate when they were finally surfaced at a police station in Tulunan, North Cotabato, at about nine in the evening of November 5, twenty-four hours passed since they were declared missing.

But the two women who are just in their early twenties, Lorelie Naiz and Mary Bernadette Solitario, sat staring in the blank and could hardly talk at the police station where six men finally brought them there. One of the men who brought them to the police identified himself as George Reyes of the Intelligence Service of the Armed Forces of the Philippines (ISAFP).

The interview with Naiz and Solitario was conducted more than a week since the incident happened but even until such time, both could still almost not believe that they are free and that the ordeal they went through had long been over.

Lorelie said she used to be a lively and cheerful person. But after what happened, she finds herself to be in a seemingly constant state of somber mood.

Bernadette, for her part, would sometimes want retreat to a very far place, where she said, she may be able to hunker down all by herself.

Both dread dusk, as it is that time of the day when they are reminded of the onset of the night of torture they suffered in the hands of their captors.

They get nervous whenever they see tinted vehicles, they tremble at the sound of revs of a motorcycle engines, much as they see burly-looking men in military fatigue uniforms.

The two were abducted in the afternoon of November 4, 2006, on their way to Batang, a village in Tulunan, North Cotabato where they were to assist evacuating families, a day after an encounter between the military and the AFP had occurred near the area.

Batang is one of the four project areas of their partner NGO, Manila-based Citizens Disaster Response and Rehabilitation Center (CDRC), under the "Aid to the Uprooted People Programme-AUPP-Philippines" which is being supported by the European Union, Delegation of the European Commission to the Philippines.

While DIRECT is based in General Santos City and Alabel town in Saranggani Province, among their project areas are located in Tulunan, North Cotabato (still part of Region XII), such as the one that Solitario and Naiz had intended to go to on that fateful day.

Those motorcycle-riding men

Naiz said eight men in civilian clothes, on board four motorcycles held them at about 3 pm in Bituan village, on their way to Batang.  When the men asked them to pull off the road, Naiz asked what they wanted because they were in a hurry to reach the place.

None of the men however, replied. Instead, they seemed to be ignoring her questions and pretended they were texting. Their motorcycles did not bear plate numbers.

For a moment, Naiz, said she wanted to console herself that Tulunan Mayor Nestor Taasan had anyway, already vouched for their safe entry to the area, having coordinated with him earlier.

But when she pressed further, one of the men yelled at her, "Paghilum. Pusilon hinoon tika run! (Shut up, or else, I will shoot you!")

Naiz, at that point, wasted no time. She managed to text a few words for the mayor telling that they were being held. She also sent the text message to her father.

Soon a maroon pick-up, with no plate number came. At that point, the things they brought with them, only handbags, were confiscated, including their cellphones, a camera and one used roll of film.

They were dragged into the vehicle. Inside were four burly-looking men, the driver, another man at the driver's seat and two men, on each side of the door. There was also a long firearm.

Naiz said she tried to speak to the men at first telling them that they are NGO workers and that the mayor had been waiting for them in Batang. But they wondered why the men inside the pick up just regarded them with the utter indifference, the same as how those motorcycle-riding men were ignoring their queries earlier.  

 When she pressed on, one of the men cut her by saying, "Relax lang! (Just relax)."

 Lorelie said, at the point, she hesitated anymore asking further questions afraid that she might just provoke them. Thus, began the terrifying silence as the vehicle that carried them moved along back wood dirt roads and on to long, empty highways of the town.

When they turned their back, they saw that the four motorcycles were following their vehicle all along, until they disappeared at a bend going to the direction of the 27th Infantry Battalion Military Detachment in New Panay village in Tulunan.

It was growing dark then as dusk came. Soon, they were on the road going to Makilala town in North Cotabato. They were brought to the Military Detachment of the 39th Infantry Battalion. They were blindfolded and interrogated in separate rooms.

Hearing Voices

To this day, the two women complained of having difficulty going to sleep. They said it's as if the voices on the night they were in the hands of their captors at the 39th IB would keep on ringing in her ears, refusing to leave.

"NPA ka amina na lang gud! (You are an NPA. You must now admit it!)

"NGO worker ko. Unsa pa may gusto ninyo nga isulti nako?!" (I am an NGO worker. What should I tell you?!)

"Ah kanang inyong opisina prente lang na sa NDF!" (Your office is just a front of the NDF!"

"Among opisina, naa nay project sa area ilalum sa funding agency nga European Union." (Our office has a project in the area being funded by the European Union."

"Kanang European Union, communist country na!" (That European Union is a communist country!)

 

"Sayang ka Lor, gwapo ra ba imong lawas" (What a waste? You have a beautiful body."

"Malooy mo, unsa may among sala?! (Take pity on us. What have we done?!)

"Kung pwede paulia na mi ninyo! (Please, have pity, let us go...)" 

At first, Lorelie thought, she could still parry their questioning. But as night dragged on, the voices were still as strong as ever and the chuckles of the men lurking around her were as Lorelie puts it, just tormenting.

Methods of Terror

"I felt so already weary and bone-tired that I wished I had collapsed, or drowse off from exhaustion, the better to evade the incessant grilling that night. But my senses just refused to shut off," Lorelie recounted her ordeal.

"They also threatened to push me into a cliff, and pretended they had already finished digging out my grave. Then, they also took a picture of me her holding a signboard with a note that I am a "liaison of the New Peoples' Army," she recounted.

"I want to avenge them. Those men were brutes, ultimate jerks!" Naiz said, her voice already breaking.

Meanwhile, Bernadette, recalled of being led into an open shack by a cliff, blindfolded.

"There, they started asking me, my name, my age, where I studied, where my parents are and where they live. Then the question if I am an NPA, a communist. They even accused that I was bringing a hand grenade, and that my father is a bomb maker," she said.

Bernadette said, they asked the question many times and even threaten to tie her feet, her hands and her neck with a rope. They also rolled a paper and hit it on her head.

"At one point, I asked that I may be allowed to urinate. But the men would not go away, and so unable to hold it any longer, I tried groping my way a little farther. But the men were just around. I could even make out their laughter. I didn't realize that I was standing on a verge of a cliff and I thought that they were soon going to finish me off by pushing me down," she said.

"As night dragged on, there seemed to be no end to the questioning. And every time I fake falling off to sleep, they would tap me rudely so I may wake up and face up to their questioning again," Bernadette further recounted.

"Then they would tell me that Lorelie had already owned up to being an NPA and that it was my turn to admit.  Later, another voice would tell, "Humana ko pre. Ikaw na pud didto. (I'm done. It's your turn there.)," she continued.

But the ordeal did not stop with the mind games their captors played on the two the entire evening.

When morning came, they were forced to take some food. But Lorelie had been throwing off. Bernadette too could not eat out of exhaustion.

Both said they could hardly believe when they saw each other the next day. Somebody told them that they were going to be released. But then, Bernadette thought it seemed too good to be true anymore. They almost felt resigned to the worst.

But one of the men who came upon them mockingly told of how many had been looking for them already. Lorelie thought, it must be her cellphone which she heard kept ringing several times that night.

"Maybe they were going to salvage us. We just sat there, not talking at all. We were already very tired," Bernadette described how they were when both of them were put in the same maroon pick-up the next day.

But then, there were led again into another room where, for the first time, they said, they heard voices of women.

"For a while, it felt like a brief respite. But later, they turned out to be the same brutes!" Lorelie said as she recounted what these women, who first introduced themselves to be "their comrades" in Tagalog dialect, did," Lorelie said.

"They ordered us to strip off our clothes because they said, we might be hiding something. We were still in blindfolds. And we felt hands removing our bras, and pulling down our panties. And all the while, we were hearing men's chuckles from all around," Lorelie recounted.

Bernadette, realizing that she was menstruating, asked that she be allowed to change her undergarment.

"But, they forbade me. I was not even allowed to do this thing, on my own?! Helpless against them while those hands were removing my panty, was just degrading and humiliating!" Bernadette said.

Lorelie said, one man then came to them, and asked that they bear with them. "Pasensya lang jud mi. Naa lay trabaho. (Please bear with us. There is just work for us to do.)," were his words as Lorelie told. "Pasensyahe? Sa ilang gibuhat nga hapit man gani mi mangamatay? (Bear with them? With all that they have done to us? They even almost killed us!)," Lorelie said.

They were then told that they were going to be brought for medical-check up.

Outrage

The story of Lorelie and Bernadette, according to human rights groups in Region XII is another one added to the baffling symptoms of what have become of the present administration's policy nowadays, against what it perceives as its enemies.

Karapatan Region XII secretary general Shamrod Abdulaziz, Jr. sees this incident as part of the series of continuing human rights atrocities that the country now see under the 'All-Out War' measure taken by the Arroyo administration against 'insurgency.

The Arroyo government has declared an "All Out War," a supposed "endgame" strategy against the reds in June.

But after almost five months now since the announcement, the killings among political activists have continued. From the count of 684th when a peasant activist from Misamis Oriental Tito Marata was shot dead a day after GMA made that declaration, the numbers of dead political activists now has reached 765th, as of last Saturday's count.

Abdulaziz said this incident against the two CDRC staff volunteers is just among the "clear proofs that the Arroyo government is training its war, not against the armed, but against civilians, even those organizations who are supposed to be helping people who are victims of the abuses which are the AFP's own making, anyway."

 
Abdulaziz said that the perpetrators of the abuse against Naiz and Solitario are clearly elements of the Philippine Army contrary to the version they were circulating, that NPA men abducted the two.

The fact that that the eight motorcycle men who stopped Naiz and Solitario on their way to Batang village were seen heading towards the 27th IB Military Detachment in New Panay, Tulunan, North Cotabato and the fact that they were brought to the 39th IB Military Detachment in Makilala, North Cotabato and that Naiz and Solitario were turned over to the Tulunan Police Station by men, one of them identified himself as an ISAFP element were, according to Abdulazziz, glaring evidence of the military's culpability.

Abdulaziz pointed that Nais and Solitario were violently seized and detained by the military without any lawful basis and without any judicial authority to justify their violent capture.

"They were tortured, which is a blatant human rights abuse and one that is prohibited and not justifiable in any way, as a tactic, a method of securing any information especially by state armed forces of any country in the course of their work," he pointed.

"These military men did it not just because they were sadists per se, but because this is the policy now being carried out in the military against who it suspects as its enemy. This is proof that the Arroyo administration is now carrying out a policy of terror!" Abdulaziz said.

"What the AFP element did was clearly an act that is unlawful and highly immoral, and one that betrays any claim of legitimacy that the Arroyo government is trying to put on its 'All Out War' strategy. If at all, it has only unmasked further a stratagem that shows no sympathy at all for human rights and human dignity, truly, a mark of her fascist regime," he lashed.

Meanwhile, Gabriela spokesperson in General Santos City, Dr. Emely Lagare called what happened to Naiz and Solitario as "an incident that counts among the long list of record of state violence against the Arroyo administration as it violates human rights and as it forcibly insists on linking legal groups with the NPA."  Gabriela is a National Alliance of Women's Organization.

Lagare has condemned the 27th and the 39th IB and called them "instruments of violence against women."

"There may be no trace of physical violence on Ms. Nais and Ms. Solitario, but the effect of mental torture and sexual harassment that they experienced and tried fighting against in the whole time that they were in the hands of experts in psychological operations of the 27th and 39th IB are deep and lingering," Lagare said.

"So they could fully recover from the traumatic psychological experience, they have to attain justice," Lagare added.

Lagare challenged the Commission on Human Rights (CHR) and other agencies of the government to investigate and file cases against the 27th IB and 39th IB.

Naiz and Solitario with the help of human rights advocates Karapatan and Gabriela, have filed the case with the Commission and Human Rights and the City Prosecution in General Santos last November 8.

At present, they are in custody of an organization which they deem not to disclose, for security reasons.###

 


Posted at 06:56 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Nov 15, 2006
A Woman's Place is in the Struggle Daw

 

A Womans Place is in the Struggle Daw

 

* Isang pagninilay-nilay pagkatapos napakinggan ang kantang Maria ng Sining Lila na nagsasabing:   Bayan darating din ang araw

Iluluwal mo ang bagong Maria

Ang Mariang hindi tatalikod sa yo

Hanggang kamatayan....

 

Handa ka na ba Maria?

May tapang ka ba?

Isipin na ang bisig mong mapang-aruga

Ay hindi lang sanggol ang kayang madadala.

 

Handa ka na ba Maria?

Labanan ang mga kamay na nakapiring sa yong mga mata?

Burahin sa isipan ang boses ni ama

Na nagsasabi sa iyo na mahina ka.

 

Kung bakit hindi,

Samantalang,

Sa mga pagkakataong ito

Mulat ka na

Kitang-kita mo sa iyong mga mata

Kung ano ang nangyari kay Liza, Liliosa at Lorena

Ang mga walang pangalang mga inang

Naghahanap sa kanilang pinaslang na mga anak

Ang mga walang pangalang mga asawang

Naghahanap sa kanilang pinaslang na mga mahal

Maria, higit sa lahat

Mulat ka na

 

Subalit bakit animoy pilit ibinabahay pa rin ang mga gagamba sa aking mga mata?

Kung bakit ang sinasabing puwang ng kababaihan ay nasa pakikibaka ay hindi ko pa makita

Dahil mahirap pa pala talagang mag-astang mulat tungkol sa kababaihan

Lalot nasa katayuang hindi pa lubusang kilala

Paano kung sila ay lumaban.

###

*Revised November 2006

 

 


Posted at 07:36 am by naislumaya
Make a comment  

Next Page